Six Things You Never Knew About the Queer Kid

Six Things You Never Knew About the Queer Kid

Number one:
This queer kid liked books,
Video games, superheroes and believes in God.
But straight people took these hobbies off of him,
Gave him musical theatre and a makeup brush
And put in a box with labels branded on.
The normalisation of heterosexuality
In the media took his closet doors
And replaced it with a wall.
A wall, with “born sick”
Spray painted on.
He wore clothes that did not fit,
Were not his taste,
In that box he stayed.
With so many straight people in the media
How can you feel normal?

Number two:
His schoolmates bullied him
For being gay before they even knew what
Being gay was.
They spat abuse at him,
As if in a foreign tongue,
Too naive and too damn young
To really understands that society branded me
Before I was aged 13.

Number three:
He becomes an object.
When he gets his first job
People will spend his first shift-
Not getting to know him-
But speculating if he was gay
Or just bad at being a boy,
Turns out he’s both.
A straight girl wrote a label that said
“gay best friend”
And choked him to death with it,
Bad at sports but then bad at theatre,
He can’t fight but he can’t dance either,
Bad at being straight worse at being gay
Attached to a cliche with too much weight
He knows he wasn’t meant to be made this way.

Number four:
He loses his masculinity and his dignity
When he finds a boyfriend.
He snaps the twigs of his sexual confidence
Takes half his virginity and ploughs straight through him
Though he always thought victims were meant to be women,
Sexual confusion, body dysphoria and post trauma
Fuel a suicide attempt that the police say was for attention
As if the broken queer boy was too gay for depression.
His soul becomes a corpse
But he’s still alive
His eyes are ghosts
And his body is a haunted house
That just won’t fall down
He gets lost in his own body
And in the bloodstains of his bedsheets
His wrists itch and razors won’t scratch
The promise of love came with a catch
And his rapist won’t give him his virginity back.

Number five:
We are not wet wipes,
We use makeup as warpaint
And leave the house fear stained.
That’s not lipstick, it’s blood.
This isn’t nail polish, I’ve just been walked on.
I wasn’t wearing eyeshadow but they put these bruises on
With fists and words
This is a straight man’s world.
Anne Widcombe says
Scientists could find a cure for being gay
But if I am diseased I will die this way.

Number six:
It is only when he left high-school he understood himself.
This queer kid likes books
But hates reading about straight couples.
This queer kid believes in God
As much as God believed in him,
Last time I tried to die I got half way to heaven
But God told me to turn around:
He said, “Hell has no place for you,
And the world still needs queer kids like you,
Your work is unfinished
Your book is unwritten
Your friends are unloved
Without you with them.
And if you die now
The world will never change”
And my noose fell loose
And I was back again.

Six things you never knew about the queer kid:
1) he reads about queer people, because he likes feeling represented.
2) he was bullied in highschool but learnt to not resent it, he needed it.
3) being objectified made him realise he was alive.
4) victims are not seen and not believed when they are queer, victimhood is part of being gay to the world.
5) the world is not ready for queer people.
6) queer people are valid, regardless.